back from work.

hmm my feb schedule still not out.

sians.

are we having any renuion dinner this yr?

seems like no one starting the ball rolling.

later i plan le last min give excuses and less den 50% of the ppl turn up.

its like wasting my effort planning.

heart pain de leh.

once again to plan a gathering is not a easy job.

hais.

see my mood lah.

wana plan or not.

but if i nv plan.

when are we going to meet up again?

till one day dont care abt each other?

eventually forget one another?

hais hais hais.

i really wat to do le lah.

the more i think.

the more my heart feel hurt.

can someone pls advice?

if i were to ask u 'wat do u see urself in 3yrs time?'

wat ur ans will be?

im being asked this qns by my business consultant.

i crapped one big round with her.

but actually i dont really understand wat the hell im trying to say.

im like a person with no goals in my life.

i dunno wat i wana do in the future.

and of coz i dunno wat will i be doing in the future.

am i going to continue to persue my dream?

i want to.

but im scared of failure again.

how many yrs can i try?

1yr?

2 yrs?

5yrs?

or 10yrs?

arghh.

forget it.

i will stay watever im now.

hais.

im really afraid to think far.

i just hope tat everyday have a better tmr.

im satisfied.

phew~

had been working like mad the past few days.

dont say le lah.

angry.

fed up.

but i cant do anything.

ya.

unlike last time.

can revenge.

but now.

wat i can do is.

to suffer myself.

hais.

anyway those hard days are over.

went shopping aft work with candice to relax myself ba.

i went back to the same shop to get another dress.

tube dress this time round.

something new.

something tat i did not have before.

hee.

candice bought the same as me too.

hmm well.

actually is i bought the same one as her.

coz is she the one who spot it first.

hee.

den we bought the same sandels.

and oso the same wedges.

hee.

happie happiee~!!

=DD

yup think im done with my cny shopping le.

dont wana spend somemore liao.

think i had spent more den 200bucks liao leh.

=x

bRoKe~

ohh ya!

had watched rambo 4 few days back with him.

its like omg lor.

so er xin~!!

errrrr...

just came back from work.

tired~

3crews nv turned up for work.

-_-

made 3managers worked like mad dogs.

haa.

tired is tired.

things tat i wana to be done i still can do it.

maybe not all have the same thinking as me.

well.

i need to be more understanding ba.

hmm... ...~

actually im so mood-less de.

but aft talking to my goon du friend junaina.

i feel better.

hmm.

it had been a long time ever we talk on phone.

we seldom talked too le.

aft i transfer out from kallang.

to marina square.

den she transfer out to funan.

den attach to T3.

aft tat back to funan.

now tell me she wana resign.

wth~

i just promoted.

den she wana resigned.

still promised me to go D&D this year together.

idiotic she~

-_-

yeah yeah.

talking abt D&D.

its abt on march.

hee.

looking forward for it!!

=p

not working today.

feeling so damn tired and lazy.

dont feel like doing anything and going anywhere.

just came back from work.

my nose is killing me.

sneeze and sneeze for the whole day.

abt a week le lor.

bth~

yeah yeah.

came back from shopping at queensway.

he got his shoe.

i got my skinny jeans.

=DD

but.

he claims tat i look fat although tats SKINNY jeans.

so sad!!

i still buy it.

coz.

he only tell me aft i paid.

-_-''

to my surprise.

he brought me to ecp aft tat.

y surprise?

coz i was told to close my eyes almost 3/4 of the journey.

its like takin roller coaster in the dark.

felt so giddy.

den when i open my eyes.

yeah im at ecp!

i like to go there.

to slack.

to enjoy the sea breeze.

to listen to the sea wave

hee.

=p

aft two off days.

later going to work at 330pm.

like to work closing shifts.

coz im a night lfe person.

haa.

just came back from our shopping trip.

well perhaps is HIS shopping trip instead ba.

coz he is the one who bought lotsa stuffs while im empty handed.

lols.

went bugis street.

he bought himself one jeans and two tops.

is guys jeans tat ex?

59bucks for one?

omg~

haa.

actually wana get myself another skinny.

but tat particular shop is damn lots of ppl.

so i changed my mind not to get it.

haa.

we went to catch ONE MISSED CALL.

nice movie.

coz i like horror mah.

haa.

horror-ness: 9/10

storyline: 6.5/10

the lead actor died and the story somehow got no ending.

and oso dunno how the whole story actually started.

haha.

well but still kinda recommanded.

anyway is it true tat watching horror movies is like wasting money to scare urself?

perhaps its true for those who are scared and dont like.

but.

i like it.

LOLs~!!

=DD

surprisingly he is not working today.

surprise coz i dunno it at all.

haha.

think we might be going to queensway coz he wana get shoes.

think i might can get skinny there.

grab some tops if i can find any.

hee.

another shopping trip on 28!!

haha.

with dolly and candice.

maybe lisa too,

wana get shoes tat day.

hee.

yeah yeah yeah~

shop shop shop till drop before cny!!

=p

today is sunday.

so happy tat im off.

tmr im off too.

its so great tat having 2 off days straight.

already planned to go out today.

but i dunno how is the plan going on.

i looking forward for today for a very long time.

supposely to be happy.

but..

sads.

seriously is very difficult to handle family work friends and bf all at one time.

i believe everyone dont wish to neglect any of it.

tat including me.

so wat can i do to have equal and sufficient time for all?

went for dinner.

shun bian went to kallang mcd to visit them.

so sad lor.

they say i getting fatter liao.

OMG~!!!

i really need to do sth abt it lor.

hais

haha.

no jogging today.

coz he finishing work at 7pm instead of 11pm.

going out for dinner later.

hee.

and dunno y these few days i had been sneezing for the whole day.

he miss me too much?

lols.

=D

just feel uncomfortable.

excuse?

haa.

but still i wana slim down!!

but how?!?!

argh... ...

hmm.

another working day had past.

and today im off again.

think im gonna stay at home again.

wana go jogging.

hope the weather wont be bad.

haa.

dunno y i somehow looking forward for cny.

kinda excited abt it.

hee.

=p

planned to go jogging just now in the evening de.

but heavy rain.

my plan is ruined.

-_-

yup finally i uploaded photos in my friendster le.

aft 2mths i guess

haa.

hmm its wednesday le.

well im not working today.

gonna stay at home to slack the whole day.

it had been a very very long time ever since i last slack at home whole day.

haa.

haiya suet ah suet.

i dunno wat to say abt myself lor.

sensitive is ok.

but y am i forever OVER sensitive de.

actually nth happen.

made me so damn afraid to go work.

yup.

at least now think i dont need to worry tat much le ba.

my confidence is back again.

im willing to learn form my mistake.

and wont let history happen again.

(:

seriously shit.

i wana slim down b4 cny~!!

=DD

yup cny is less den a mth time.

cny shopping started but has not end.

gonna shop more!

hee.

this cny will be very different ba.

im not going back malaysia for cny.

aft 19yrs?

haa i dunno when i was baby i did went back or not.

at least 12yrs i celebrated cny at malaysia.

but this yr cant.

first due to i cant take leave for the whole feb.

isn't it idiotic?

hais.

secondly my bro in ns le.

tats y.

hais.

i miss my ah yi.

i miss my jiu jiu(s).

i miss my cousins esp my fav biao jie!!

and lastly definately i miss my 7 cutest nicece and nephews~!!

):

its MONDAY~!!

a brand new week.

forget abt last week.

and start new.

be happy.

(:

had watched the movie LINGER by zai zai.

not too bad.

rating 7/10

im back to online spree le~!!

omg!!

lols.

hope i wont be addicted once again and spend ALOT.

haa.

hais.

im so sad.

im so afraid.

im so stress.

im such a failure.

in the past im so confident tat i can do my job properly.

but actually i dont have tat much capabilities.

or am i having to much confidence in myself.

im too proud le?

i believe tat ALL human being make mistake right?

actually i shld learn from mistake.

instead of learning.

i repeat the same mistake.

again again.

and now im losing confidence le.

i dont feel like doing it le.

im so scared.

im afraid to overcome my fear.

i hope i can run away from the problem.

but i noe i cant.

i need to pay responsible to wat i had done.

hais.

working is so fucking stress.

i really got the mindset of dont wana work le.

i wana go study.

aft this matter had happened.

the more i wana go study.

am i trying to avoid the problem?

or i just really wana study.

i cant differentiate.

hais.

i really wana cry le.

i dunno wat to do le.

i cant do or say anything but only to say SORRY.

i dunno how am i going to face her tmr.

i dunno how she going to nag at me.

i dunno whether i can hold on my tears or not.

but i hope i can.

coz i dont wana let my crews see tat im not strong.

hais its not easy to act and pretend.

no one else can help me except myself.

think tmr i need to face the 'music'.

den next build up my confidence once again,

and lastly overcome the fear ba.

hope this plan will really work ba.

(:

ITS SATURDAY~!!

and im not working.

hee yeah.

=p

yup yup.

year 2008 had past 1 week plus le.

let me list out my resolutions.

1. to be a good daughter

2.to be a good gf

3.to save more money and spend less

4.slim down

5.to get into nus to study mathematical sciences

6.to get my driving licence

happy 2008~!!

(:

back home.

im so so so tired.

i dunno im tired coz of work.

or tired coz of the medication tat cause drowsiness.

started work at 0715.

ended work at 1615.

going to meet dear aft work.

but he finish work at 1800.

so i stayed in store to do some of my paper work den go off.

had not list my 2008 resolutions yet.

got some on mind.

will post it on my next post.

im so damn sleepy le.

i wana go slp liao.

good night everyone~

(:

o0o.

so so so long nv update le.

hee paiseh ah.

my bdae over.

celebrated with my 4 crazy girls.

celebrated with my 3 jies.

celebrated with my dear.

im happy.

im contented.

(:

xmas over.

no outings.

no countdown.

just being with him at the very first moment of xmas.

(:

new year over.

again no celebration.

no countdown..

just dont feel like being in the crowd.

having him watching fireworks with me.

im glad.

im happy.

acutally tat is one of my wish long ago.

to watch fireworks with my love one.

i just find it so romantic.

hee.

finally my wish come true during the very first moment of the year 2008.

hope year 2008 will be a good year for me.

(:

my bro just went into ns.

'where boy become man'

lols.

wish him good luck.

all the best.

endure and tolerate.

(:

so i think i can be online more often le ba.

haa.

im sick.

just went to see doctor.

had fever while working ytd.

had panadol felt much better,

but my throat is still hurting me.

even eating and drinking is hurting me like hell~!!

hais.